Its been awhile since my last entry and for good reason. Life has taken many twists and turns that have cause rational and creative thought to totally escape me. I will never go into personal things on my blog but I can't help but think that if I let something out it could help.
The past 8 weeks have been an experience that I never thought I would go through. Not in that it would never or couldn't happen to me but the way that life has gone has been something that I was not prepared for nor could I ever have been. Whatever happens out of all of it I know that I can be better for the experience. However, I know that it is up to me what I do with what I have learned. It has always seemed to me that everything takes a lot long to happen for me than everyone else and it seems like that is not going to change anytime soon. I also know that I have reached a critical point in my life, a quarter-life crisis some might say. I have important decisions to make, things that I want and need to know, hopes and dreams that I want to realize and so on. On the flip side, I also know that I need to be prepared to be disappointed, to struggle, to be stressed, to be alone. I know that there are at least two sides to every situation and even more possible outcomes. Sometimes I'm scared for anything to change and sometimes I want to change everything. Sometimes I worry that I've boxed myself into a life that I can't change and sometimes I feel like I can go anywhere and do anything with life.
I know most of us would enjoy knowing how certain things in our lives will turn out, but at the same time still hoping for a little adventure and surprise. I've also realized that often there is very little I can do to affect certain things and that so much depends on other people.
I guess what I'm trying to say in all my rambling is that I really kind of feel lost in my own life right now and trying to figure out something, anything, just to know how one part of my life is going to turn out...
Guess all I can do is take it one day at a time and see what happens...
Here's hopin"!!
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Your a hell of a guy. It is hard for one aspect of ones life not to carry over to all the others. You are correct it is impossible to predict what will happen with certainty in the future, but the best way to predict the future is to look at the past.
Here are some quotes that I like that might fit with your situation. You have a good head on you shoulders, trust that.
Aim for success, not perfection. Never give up your right to be wrong, because then you will lose the ability to learn new things and move forward with your life.”
No problem is so formidable that you can't walk away from it.”
Do I love you because you're beautiful, or are you beautiful because I love you? Am I making believe I see in you, a woman too perfect to be really true? Do I want you because you're wonderful, or are you wonderful because I want you? Are you the sweet invention of a lover's dream, or are you really as beautiful as you seem?”
I think I can guarantee that things will always take longer for me.
You are a hell of a guy and don't lose hope. We all live on it.
Dear Reagan,
when life throws you lemons, make lemonade. Shit faced lemonade, just drink it and get smashed. Thats what life's about, getting shit faced. Make the most of it and then learn from it, then move on. Adventure, opportunity and mistakes are the greatest endeavors.
Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.
Finally, Costanza said it best:
"The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. I mean, life is tough. It takes up a lot of your time. What do you get at the end of it? A death. What’s that, a bonus?!?! I think the life cycle is all backwards. You should die first, get it out of the way. Then you go live in an old age home. You get kicked out for being too healthy, go collect your pension, then, when you start work, you get a gold watch on your first day. You work forty years until you’re young enough to enjoy your retirement. You drink alcohol, you party, and you get ready for high school. You go to primary school, you become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities. You become a little baby, you go back, spend your last 9 months floating with luxuries like central heating, spa, room service on tap, then you finish off as an orgasm! Amen.”
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